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So I've been sick for like a week now, I really got laid out and been in bed most of the time. Kind of like COVID last summer.

I had horrible fever dreams and my nose hurt a lot.

Coughing so bad I lost my voice.

That was Saturday, now I'm calming down, but still feel a little sick. I tried to work yesterday, (and because I don't have anymore sick leave), but I couldn't do it.

But today, I had a job interview. Basically going from contract to in house job shift.

It was a struggle to get ready, but I made on time

I think the interview went great, even though I was sweating bullets.

Of course I think I flounder on the question, what would you do with a rude employee. I don't do well when telling a person they're doing something wrong when I work with them or will see them the next day.

I think my face went red.

But no way I was going to miss this interview, sick or no sick.

And now it's done and it's back to work.

Red Bull powers and anxiety, activate!

TL;DR Deviantart don't like fat people drawings, so why stay?

Seems a pic of mine gets deleted every week.

Deviantart has been on a champagne to delete any kind of fetish material. Whether is being pornographic or not. I would really miss it, because I love how I can be organized and basically make subfolders and the like.

But if I'm going to be hassled like this, and have to worry if I'm gonna be banned or not, I may as well pick up and leave to more comfortable corners. I guess they want to be more professional and less Deviant.

Most of my drawings are harmless and not sexual in nature, other than access skin and hedonism. Which can be done tastefully, which I usually try to aim for. But people with a chip on their shoulders and an axe to grind won't see it that way, and will gate guard always.

So why even bother with such nonsense?

It would sting, though. I have been on this site for such a long time, a safe place to be, a coming of age for things that the outside world refused to talk about.

Though I got overwhelmed many times, and haven't been the best communicator, it was still a home.

I know, sob story, but I've never down a rage quite before, just confusion changes figuring my self out.

This isn't a final word on the matter, just thinking deeply about it. it just feel like I'm going to declare bankruptcy as a NSFW artist and essentially start all over.

We'll see what happens, whether I've had enough of this purge or if I'll stay.

So I feel I should be making a patreon to attempt to come back in full force, If there is anything I'm good at, it's drawing. and if I could, I would love to do this full time. Dreaming big may be risky... but lets take the chance.

The big problem I'm facing, is I really don't have much ideas. it's the problem with many artist, a blank canvas scares them with all ideas jumbling up and messing with motivation.

so I wonder if at all possible if you guys could lend me a hand.

I wonder what you guys have been wanting. I guess to gauge if things have changed or characters that I am just not aware of. feel free to tell me any vague or specific ideas.

There is a catch to this.. hence the title.

any idea given freely, will be in the patreon for a month or exclusively.

I'm very sorry if this is a sleazy thing to do, but it's the kind of help I'm looking for.

doing drawings for others has been a far better motivator than any other reason.

which is why you hardly see drawings doing for my self and embarrassed cause I think I go too far sometimes.

so, if you'd please, any theme, scene, character, lewd, mood, dude or lady. I just need ideas to focus with. And I don't want to get too far away from what it is you peoples want.